I haven't written in months! I could say that I have been busy, but that would be a lie. I have recently come to grips with the fact that I have just been scared to be truly vulnerable. I have been scared to feel because I don't want to get hurt. I have been afraid to post because of what people might think. When did I become the person that cared what others thought about me?
In high school I had a teacher that told me, "Izsie, people are either going to hate you or love you, and I have a feeling you won't care either way." Well Mr. Moore, I wish that was still true. Somewhere a long the way, however, I started to care too much. I started to let fear into my life. I started to let other people dictate who I should be. It led me to lose sight of who I am. The world said, "that this is the time that I am supposed to find myself", but somehow I lost myself. I turned to personality quizzes to rediscover who I was, but it just made me more confused. I listened to the people around me to tell me who I was. HOW DUMB IS THAT? What, I missed that step in high school so why not do it now? Yeah, no! So, I am reclaiming my life and going back to my roots. There is nothing wrong with who I am. Yeah, I need a little polish and that will come with time, but I (with God) dictate who I want to become. I am the girl that feels deeply. I have lots of highs and lots of lows in my life. I am the girl that writes to discover the world. Writing gives me comfort! So, wether you love me or not, I don't actually care... if you love me, I love you too. And if you don't, I love you. And, wether you like my writing or not, I'm back. So enjoy. Or don't. You do you!
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