So, have you ever been in that situation when someone tells you something, I don't know like, "You're the best" and you just don't believe them? Or maybe you do believe them but you almost roll your eyes at them? Or maybe it is more like you want to believe them but you are not quite sure if they are sincere?
Ok, so maybe when I wrote this title I was feeling a bit bitter, but the general sentiment of the post still stands and I think there are others out there that can relate to how I feel. Growing up I was always "one of the bros." All my friends were guys and when the girl friends that I did have enjoyed a girls night I was usually hanging out with the guys at bro night. I always had more fun with the guys and knew that I could just be myself around them. As I grew up though there was always this reoccurring dilemma that I am always the friend and never the girl. I am the one that they feel like they can talk to about anything, I am non threatening for them to be around. They can have fun and relax and they don't have to feel nervous. Simply put I am the one that they have no interest in dating... Don't get me wrong my guy friends are fantastic. They say all the right things and they are some of the most supportive people in my life. I love and care about them and I know they love and care about me too. It's just sometimes I want more... Again don't get me wrong I don't have a crush on every single one of my guy friends it is just that sometimes I wish that it was a guy that I liked and who liked me that was telling me that they think I'm the best. I want someone who sees me as more than safe, more than just comfortable to be around or more than just one of the guys. I want someone who sees me as special. Someone who sees my potential and wants to help me to be successful. I want someone who will say that I am the best and then prove that they mean it. Guy friends are great, but they come and go, I want something eternal, something that lasts. A best friend forever. I know, now I sound desperate and what not, but I really am fine! I know that everything is in the Lord's timing and that it really will all work out. I just need to be patient. Besides, I am 22 and I have so much to do and so much ahead of me. You just need to vent it out sometimes to make your self feel better, ya know? If you do, however, want to give any dating tips or share your stories, leave a comment! I would love to hear your stories and know that I'm not alone haha
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